I have been watching My Little Pony for a while now (I am no veteran). I have never tried to break into a fandom very much with any show I watch, even ones I've been a serious fan of for 10 years. I mostly watch them for myself and look at some things other people make online, but the animated shows mean a lot to me. My Little Pony was "okay" when I found out about it but it has grown on me A LOT!
I didn't have any plans to go to BronyCon 2018 but right after I heard the news that 2019 is the last one, I thought I should go because it is my last chance. I thought it would be fun to go, buy stuff, maybe cosplay, and also meet a brony for the first time in my life. I have never gone to a convention of any show or met anyone to talk to about a show I love. I started trying to be more of a part of it all by doing things like coming here. But now I feel like I am not meant to go, kind of guilty that I didn't try harder to get out there before. I am starting to get this now with other shows I've been a fan of for a long time because of this. I sit and immerse myself in all of the episodes, characters, plots, and show theories, but really have just sat back and watched fandoms. I now feel like I won't belong and regret not taking the show more serious earlier. The show really has made me feel good and the characters have grown on me. This would be the first time I've met fans of a show and don't know how it will go. I now don't really get the same joy when I think about BronyCon 2019 or watch MLP.
Am I overthinking it? What should I expect if I go to BronyCon? Will people judge me for not being an avid convention go-er?